10 Years on...

This is my personal testimony. I wish to give Glory and Honor for my Lord and Savior Jesus Christ.

09/09/2009: Today is a memorable and a remarkable day in my life. I was living in Choolaimedu in Chennai and at that time I went through a very difficult time of my life. Though I had just joined a diploma course at the Institute of Mental Health, Kilpauk, I was really down in dumps.

After completing my MBBS course, I studied continually for almost 2 years for MD entrance exams. I attended various exams all over India. I also applied for Tamil Nadu Government jobs, but unfortunately, none of these doors were open to me. The hardest bit was that most of my senior and even my junior colleagues were getting jobs or selected for MD, but for me, there seemed to be no way out. I felt very dejected. I mourned. My soul was restless everyday. I prayed daily with tears to God. "Lord! Show me my way! There seems to be no way out! Help me" This was my prayer for 2 years. Most of my days, on my return from work, I went straight to the church to spend time with God. I attended almost every meeting that took place in Chennai (1999-2001) with my brother or friends (JJ/ Ramki/ Saravanan/ Britto).

Also I was worried as I was getting older, when my friends as well as juniors got married. I even felt ashamed to attend their weddings. Once I had to attend a wedding, as they are my relatives. On reaching the church premises, I felt ashamed to go inside the marriage hall. So I hid myself near the bushes and wept to my Lord. “When will to take out of my shame? Will you ever bless me?” I cried and cried. Few minutes later, an auto came by the bush to drop some one. A verse was written at the back of the auto which shook me. It was written, “I will restore double to you”. I was reassured. I felt calm and believed my Lord.

But over a period of time, I was unable to bear the pain of a number of failures in my life. So I resigned my job and wished to go back to my native place. I packed my bags. On 09/09/1999, exactly, 10 years ago, as I was staying at home, I started to read The Bible with tears in my eyes. After few hours, I felt someone coming into my home which was locked. I was touched by Jesus and was anointed with an overflowing measure by the Holy Spirit. I was bubbling with joy. I stayed in His presence for nearly 4 to 5 hours. What a joyful day it was! I WILL NEVER EVER FORGET WHAT GOD HAD DONE TO ME ON THAT DAY. Though I was chosen by my Father God before the foundation of this world (Eph. 1:4), along with the Redemption given to me by the precious blood of Jesus Christ (Eph. 1:7), I was specially and personally touched and embraced by the hand of the Holy Spirit. I felt like a baby in God’s arms. The joy I received I could never be able to describe with words. I was cured of my depression and instantly & suddenly lifted up and filled with abundant joy. On that day, I KNEW FOR SURE THAT JESUS IS THE TRUE AND ONLY GOD; HEAVEN AND HELL IS REAL; EVERY WORD IN THE BIBLE IS TRUE; EVRY MAN’S SIN IS ATONED AND FORGIVEN ONLY BY THE BLOOD OF JESUS. I felt confident that my Lord will never leave me or forsake me. I went back to the same place of work and completed my diploma course.

Now looking back all these 10 years, Sovereign God had already made a special plan for me. He brought me to the UK and gave me wonderful jobs in London. He has made me proud Member of the Royal College of Psychiatrists (MRCPsych). Also, he brought a special girl (my wife) in my life from North India. Also, to confirm his Word promised to me 10 years ago, God restored my life with twin boys, Aaron and Bryan!!! Hallelujah!!! Looking back, indeed my Lord has been faithful to me. God had done things which I WOULD HAVE NEVER THOUGHT OR DREAMT 10 YEARS AGO. So, anyone reading my testimony, if you are going through a difficult time in your life, only one advice I can give you: POUR YOUR TEARS AT THE FEET OF JESUS CHRIST; THEN FORGET ALL YOUR TROUBLES; HE WILL LIFT YOU UP AND COMFORT YOU AND MAKE YOU BIG IN NATIONS. HE WILL GIVE MORE THAN WHAT YOU ASK FOR. Amen.

Eph. 3:20,21: “Now to Him who is able to do exceedingly abundantly above all that we ask or think, according to the power that works in us, 21 to Him be glory in the church by Christ Jesus to all generations, forever and ever. Amen.


Spiritual Blessings in Christ:

Eph. 1:3 Praise be to the God and Father of our Lord Jesus Christ, who has blessed us in the heavenly realms with every spiritual blessing in Christ.

4 For he chose us in him before the creation of the world to be holy and blameless in his sight. In love,

5 he predestined us to be adopted as his sons through Jesus Christ, in accordance with his pleasure and will;

6 to the praise of his glorious grace, which he has freely given us in the One he loves.

7 In him we have redemption through his blood, the forgiveness of sins, in accordance with the riches of God's grace.


Note: Testimony in this testimony: Today is a very busy day in my office, as I am working 10 hours. I wished to go to a church to pray, but no way. To my great surprise, my wonderful friend, Ramki Isaac, called me from India. Interestingly, he didn’t know that this is a special celebration day for me and also he had not called me for the last 9 months!!! After talking to him on the phone for long time, I was inspired to write this testimony!!! Hence God is Sovereign and He touched Ramki’s heart to call me so that I will write and publish it today!!! Praise, Glory and Power to My Lord and Savior Jesus Christ!!! Hallelujah!!!